ESCAPIST

well it is to hard to comment on your self but to it a try is not that bad you see.This i have been witnessing for a long time now that when i am at my work i feel like coming back home,at home i feel why did i came back cause i have nothing to do,out with my friends i fell i should have been doing something else and when i am actually trying to do something else i cant concentrate.Sound a bit weird to you i know,but this is the fact.May be i am lonely in everything ,may i am trying too harder to be happy and not letting things to happen on there own,may be,but when i go to sleep i feel like being in my desk top ,doing some thing in my desktop makes me sleepy.Do i need to go to a phychatrist or i happen to be too much satisfied with life .Big question to ask,but whom to ask. But i can feel that i need help ...............

alone,the word itself is so alone cant find anything to accompany it.well i dont know what is happen to me .am i alone ,why am i alone ,do i love to be alone .i just cant find answer to any of my questions.why i seldom like to stay from the general crowd.sometimes i think am i reaaly living my own life or i am just pretending to live and to be happy.i don not get any answer that what exactly i want in life.from what do i always run,is that truth that haunts me or i am quite weak to face the naked truth of life.whom am i cheating,myself,if so why .the erosion has set in. i am getting eroded,my mind my soul,every thing,i just do not know how to stop it .its like a suicidal patient who knows he will die ,but have to take it.i am really scared of life?if living is all happiness then why am i upset and what is the reasn for it.so many questions to answer,

alone and lonly

am alone or i am lonly

well this my first blog dont have much idea about writing but some one says that wat u writing will actually make u reliefed about ur pressure.well i always thought we all should have space,a breathing space for any relationship.there should be no questions asked nor there should be expectations from each other.but unfortunately i got into such relation which is more or less same.i just cant come out it nor i am able to keep it.whenever i think of getting out i fell that i am cheating on her.since she is too immatured ,she thinks that with all odds we should continue,but i fell we are not happy then wats then point in going around.i am in total dilemma about wat do need my wits to help me out the situation.